Inner Liberation
- Anandajay
- Apr 3
- 5 min read
Updated: May 2
The longing for inner freedom is the natural urge to be happy and joyful, for when you are happy, life feels valuable to you and you are free, if only for a moment, from shortcomings and heaviness. Being free in your inner being also means that you are free from all forms of separation and limitation within yourself and that there is an open connection to what is truly valuable in your existence.
What is most valuable in your existence is your soul, your being, or your presence, for that is the essential foundation upon which everything you experience takes place. You are happy and internally free when you are connected to the values of your inner ground. The quality of life of your inner essence can then enter the space where you usually struggle and strive to become, and where the ego therefore determines most.
Driven by the longing to allow the value of your soul to fully enter your life again, you go in search of your soul, but this often happens so automatically that you are not aware that you are sending your ego out as a servant to search for your soul.
When the ego goes searching for the soul, you do not allow the values of the soul to enter the space where you are now as the one who commissioned and longed for that quality. You have asked your faithful servant to search in the dark with a flashlight to find and retrieve the values of the soul for you.
Your servant then pays a visit, so to speak, to that which could potentially set you free. But when he goes to visit the soul, even though the soul feels how healing and liberating it is there, the ego has to return to you and cannot take the values of the soul with it. Of course, such a visit confirms the existence of the soul or your inner value, but when the sent servant returns full of experience but empty-handed, you become even more aware of the lack of that quality in your life. Many then fall into sadness over this sense of lack and end up in paralyzing and languishing passivity.
But the longing for liberation that is present in everyone can also be strengthened by this lack and eventually become so strong that one realizes that it makes no sense at all to keep sending the ego out to visit the soul just to catch a glimpse of it.
From that moment on, an immense change takes place in you, because you realize that you have imaginatively divided yourself into an "I" that longs for liberation and an "I" that has to go and search for it and fetch it like a servant, and that by identifying with that activity, you no longer feel that it is you who longs for liberation.
The moment you realize this, your visitation of the soul ceases and you immediately feel your willingness to allow the soul's values to fully enter into the 'you who longs'. That which longs most deeply for liberation, you yourself, could not be liberated as long as you identified with the diligent servant, the leader of the expedition, the architect of the project, the user of your skills, or the commander of the battle.
As long as you remain a warrior, you will try to reach the soul and take it captive, but when you truly feel that you are the one who longs most for liberation, you let go of all effort and allow the liberating qualities of the soul to come to you.
You cannot actively do anything about it, but you can open up to your longing and give it the space to work within you. The inner value of authenticity and soulfulness within you yearns as intensely to connect with the tangible reality of your humanity as you yearn for inner liberation.
The inner value that you then allow in and receive has a healing influence on the limiting tensions and unnatural divisions of that which it is allowed to enter. This warming by the inner value and the resulting natural letting go of any form of narrow-mindedness, identification or struggle is the true liberation that you have been longing for and are finally opening up to.
As long as you allow this process to take place, and as long as you receive and experience its healing effects, you will feel great joy and gratitude for the happiness of this peaceful liberation that comes from within.
Although this liberation appeals to everyone, not everyone opens to it so easily. If you experience the natural consequences of the warrior stepping aside, the disappearance of all darkness, the softening of all harshness, and the redundancy of all kinds of skills as a loss of footing and a fear of losing your trusted stability, you may well put a forceful stop to the liberation that has just taken place.
Your survival principle may feel undermined by the inner value that you have so deeply longed for and allowed to come to the surface. Not only because your survival principle is tempered, and you may interpret this as being disempowered and weakened, but also because by allowing the inner value and its fullness, you suddenly experience very clearly how cramped, needy, or inharmonious your habitual behavior has become due to the lack of this inner fullness.
At such a moment, if the joy of being liberated is overshadowed by the self-rejecting judgment you have of your habitual behavior, you grab the ego back with both hands and downgrade the experience of liberation you just had to an attack on your stability that needs to be fended off. The joyful celebration of feeling liberated then turns into a threat to one's life, and so we completely lose sight of the joy of liberation we so longed for.
But liberation cannot take place without becoming aware of what it was that imprisoned you before you were liberated. Those who, at the moment of liberation, look back on the period of captivity are lost into sentimentality and do not participate in freedom. Those who, at the moment of liberation, are ashamed of what they have become as a result of what they missed, fall back into self-pity and do not participate in liberation.
But those who, at the moment of liberation, taste and feel that freedom as what they have always longed for, will feel such an influx of joy, strength and even more longing that they will feel, beyond all judgment and shame, the fulfilling fullness and love of their inner value.
By allowing this to happen within him, he fully and happily participates in being liberated. He then feels that this is the quality that indicates precisely the direction in which he wishes to develop, beyond all the limitations of his humanity. He then feels that his longing for freedom, love and fulfillment has always been, is and will be his only true and trustworthy guiding principle.
Liberation, the longing to live in happiness, joy and the fullness of inner and soulful authenticity, is the greatest joy that can befall a human being. It removes the painful polarities from within you and your judgmental perception, and fills you from the depths of your being with light, love and the freedom-loving peace of your inner Being.
* Translated from Dutch using DeepL (AI)
Translation of the text: 'Bezieling door Inzicht - 200 levensthema's voor innerlijke groei', thema: 115. Innerlijke bevrijding. (Only available in Dutch.)
Anandajay (which means “blessing from the heart”) has been dedicated to integrating the spiritual essence into daily life for over 50 years. He has developed twelve teachings (spiritual practices), 50 music albums (mantras, pujas and ragas) and twenty books (written in Dutch) to bring you closer to the natural basis of your existence, your spiritual authenticity, and its wholesome, joyful essence, so that it can also be your shining, spiritual guide in your life. He expresses the core value of his work as: The Light of Being.
